The actual highlight of this entire trip, to me, was definitely the dinner we had for our anniversary that same Friday. We found the cutest Vietnamese restaurant in Chinatown, with a cocktail bar and super friendly staff, where we stuffed ourselves with spring rolls, loads of fried seafood and a spicy vegetable curry. The atmosphere was so nice that I didn't even care that I swallowed a whole jalapeno. My throat was on fire but all I cared about is that I was having such a good time, sipping rose wine and looking at my handsome boyfriend of 6 years. The place is called Viet Food, just in case you're wondering. I know this seems like a rave review but even my boyfriend thought the place was super fun, cosy and perfect to celebrate our love.
When it comes to my birthday, I'm a little hesitant as to what to do. I'm excited about turning 28 but I'm not sure how to go about it. Last year I organised a dinner, already sending invites 2 weeks in advance, but this time I'm still figuring out what I want. I think I'm doubtful because I've had many people bouncing their own ideas back and forth and it's put me off in a way. Also, the fact that my birthday is right in between 2 major holidays, where loads of money has been and will be spent, makes me feel a little lost. I'm trying my hardest not to fall into self sabotage mode - which is what I think is happening here - so I was thinking of maybe just keeping it between me and Marco, going out for dinner on Saturday and have a nice brunch on Sunday with some Champagne and croissants.
I talked to my therapist about how overwhelmed I feel. It wasn't one of our most productive sessions but she explained to me that holidays can be and are usually very stressful. She said I'm coping well and truly have stepped up my adulting game, planning everything and making sure that my needs are met - which is something I would have never done in the past. She did however leave me with a little something to think about: the word 'confused' is a verb I use a lot in our sessions and she asked what the advantage or benefits are of confusion. I decided to do a little google search, because I honestly thought she was asking me a trick question, and what I found is that confusion is often related to trying to learn new things. When what we hear or experience doesn't add up with what we already know. All I want to do now is to hold my head up high and be proud, proud that I'm living and learning at my own pace and finally understand myself and what is happening in this beautiful world around me.
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