I usually have my shit together when it comes to my online activities (e.g. blogging 3x a week and uploading on Youtube every Saturday) but for the last month or so not so much. I thought I'd change it up a bit over here and actually talk about why I've been recycling and up-cycling some of my older blogposts, among other things, just to be able to keep everything running smoothly.

Truth is, I've been really tired and it's been taking a toll on my creativity. I'm still excited about blogging but whereas I usually have the words flowing out of my fingertips I find myself in front of blank pages quite often these days. I have the most beautiful images but I have no inspiration. Which is okay, I know why I'm tired, but it's honestly downright annoying. I'm tired because I'm leaving my house again for the first time in 3 years. For those of you who follow my mental health journey you must have already heard me talking about this on my Instagram but for those of you who don't: I suffer from depression and anxiety and after being in therapy more than a year (more about that here) I finally started going out more, hanging out with new people, make connections etc. Get my taste for life back, essentially. I'm still a homebody, don't get me wrong, a computer, an internet connection and my camera, honestly, is all I need but it's nice to be able to 'function' again, so to speak, and hang out with other humans. I wish it wouldn't make me so tired though though. If I had to choose between being tired and being drained (which is what would happen in the past) I'd prefer tired. I miss my creativity spurts a lot, and I hope they'll soon come back. My therapist has encouraged me to rest, but I sometimes think to myself that 'resting' is all I really do, and I'm bored.

Anyway, I just wanted to let you girls know that. I wouldn't really call this a 'writer's block' - it sounds appropriate but I think I just need to give myself a break. I'm still going to try to post 3x a week, but if I miss a post here and there, this is why. Thank you for listening and I hope you have the most amazing day! Xxx Jolien