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Friday, 10 June 2016

I'm A Realist And A Dreamer

I noticed whenever I write a personal post, I'm either very sad or very happy. I'm nothing in-between like today, never, and I want to change that. Even though I like to look back at my personal posts I've been feeling very conscious about them the last few months, I've been worried that a lot of you might think I'm a negative person. I'm not an optimist, I know that for a fact, but I'm not a pessimist either, I'm a realist and a dreamer.

Being down to earth is a part of my character that a lot of you appreciate and as much as I'm proud to show where I stand and how I want my content to be perceived, I don't share enough about my dreams and goals in life. The thing is, I always tell myself I don't have any, but that's not true. I'm scared to acknowledge I have dreams and goals because they feel so far out of reach and beyond anything I could ever see myself accomplish. No one ever believed in me or my passions and as a result I feel like nothing I do is ever good enough, no matter how hard I try. I come from a background where technology and beauty is labeled as something that brainless and lazy people do. I was taught to appreciate books and art instead, which are occupations I simply am not interested in at all. I wish the people around me could see how much work and creativity goes into this blog, how much of my life I put into this blog and how much effort I put into my online content, because this is what I want to do. One of my goals for my youtube videos was to have each video reach one thousand views and not so long ago I finally hit the mark and I'm so happy. I'm a little more anxious about putting my content out there though, both because I want to keep the views up and because I'm not one to film morning and evening routines, fashion videos or day in the life videos for the simple reason that my filming camera is just not made for it. I wish I would/could film it with the equipment I have now but I'm too much of a perfectionist for that. If you follow my site closely you might have noticed I update blog posts all the time and make sure everything always lines up with the current trends, something I wish I could do with my videos. Talking about updates, I've been upgrading quite a lot of things lately, I changed my blog template which I'm beyond excited about, I'm changing the furniture in my apartment (work in progress, will be posting pictures in the future), I spring cleaned and modernised my wardrobe and went to the hairdresser, after 3 years, for a trim and a natural balayage (highlights). It was the first time I colored my hair and I'm loving the texture and manageability the balayage gave to my blonde locks.


  1. Hi Jolien,
    I absolutely believe that doing makeup is like an art!! Your face is like canvas and you create every day unique picture and in your case, you share it with us too!!! What you do is definitely artistic and creative so don't let other tell you otherwise!!!
    I am building my YouTube channel too and so far am not very successful, but that is perhaps because I am full time student (mature student with family), so there is not much time left for videos and so on. If you have any advice, how to get more interested viewers on my channel, then I would very much welcome your input. I do healthy eating channel and started also new beauty channel that I will be doing beauty on budget, some retro fashion and second hand clothes looks.
    Love your blog and YouTube xx

    1. Thank you :) I admire your dedication, good luck with your studies! When it comes to building a following on youtube at the very beginning I advise to just do you but give your content an interesting and catchy title/thumbnail. I checked out your last video (Diet? Which one?) and I really like it, the way I would name the video however is 'How To choose the best diet' or 'How to choose a diet that fits your personality'. Try to think of the titles you click on when you watch popular videos :) People want to know 'how to', 'tips & tricks' etc. Hope this helps! Xxxx

    2. Thank you so much for your advice and time to reply. I value it very much!! xxx

    3. Anytime :) you're welcome! Xxx

  2. Bohemian Gina is correct, what you do is art. You work hard to create the best channel on YouTube and you work hard to create the best blog. It is either really funny or rather sad? Perhaps a little bit of both? You were taught Technology and Beauty were for lazy people and I was taught Books and Art were for lazy people.

    You are great at Technology and a wonderful Beauty Guru, I am a Artist! Both of us doing our best to chase our dreams and hopes. I look forward to seeing the changes you are doing!


    I believe in You

  3. Something similar is happening to me, I've been educated with books, and music, and art, and they're my main love, but sometimes it looks like if you're into that you can't be into beauty too, it's like you have to choose. I also see that beauty and technology are considered second-class occupations and I absolutely think it's really wrong, because a lot of effort is put into that and it is an art as well. I see some people who want to become youtubers because "it's so easy"... well, it's not. Sorry I'm rambling, but it upsets me... Anyway, I absolutely think you're a great blogger and youtuber and you should keep doing what makes you happy!

    onmywayacqua.blogspot.com | Acqua xx

    1. It upsets me too, writing is creative but somehow because you choose to type it instead of putting it on paper it's not okay, same with taking pictures, doing makeup, filming videos etc. It's so close minded to think creativity doesn't go beyond looking like a hippie or wearing glasses (of course that's not all it is, I'm just using some funny examples :) ) and doing everything the old fashioned way. At least that's how I experience it. Thank you for your sweet words, I really appreciate it , have a nice rest of the week! Xxx


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