Jolien Nathalie

I talk beauty & mental health

Topshop Bella Straw Tote Bag

I've only just come back from a city trip to London and my brain is already on to the next big thing: I'll be turning 28 in about a week and after that my boyfriend and I are going on holiday to Southern Italy, starting with Naples. I'm excited but also very nervous. This holiday was planned long in advance, which is something we usually don't do, because this time around we also had to book a petsitter, who'll be taking care of our bunny Chloé whilst we're gone. The level at which I have been adulting I don't think has ever reached this altitude. I've changed so much in the past months that I can't quite believe it, with loads of ups and downs for sure but I'm growing steady. Among other things, me and my boyfriend just celebrated our 6 year anniversary and I hadn't given it much thought up until now, 6 whole years is just wow! Time goes so fast when you're close to being 30.
Swimwear For Women With Small Breasts

I didn't always love my small breasts like I do now. As a young girl, and a late bloomer, being flat chested was something that I had a hard time dealing with. I was bullied for it, called names. I already wasn't having the best time at school, so the fact that also my body was a reason for others to bother me didn't help. It wasn't until I had boyfriends who never had anything negative to say about my A cup that I was comfortable in my own body. Yes, I owe a lot of my body confidence to boys. I realise that sounds like a weird thing to say but it's the truth. Those boys then left but my body confidence never did, it only improved. Today's post is about embracing your small beautiful boobies in collaboration with Hunkemoller for their Doutzen Stories Collection. The best part about this collab? That this post will be a crazy trip down memory lane! Hunkemoller is where I got my first brahs as a young girl. I still have one of them to this day, it's a red sporty kind of bra. Maybe a little TMI but it is still in great condition, I promise! 
When You Have Not Worked In Years Due To Depression And Anxiety

My last 3 therapy sessions have been really hard - productive, but hard. There seems to be a lot more to talk about and to dig into than I initially thought. I recently posted my 2 year therapy update and even though I'm still struggling mental health wise, I've been a lot happier which is why, I think, I've been underestimating my sessions in the past months. Work is something I talk about a lot, with my therapist. The fact that I really want to work and that I haven't worked in nearly 4 years. That I haven't really done anything apart from blogging actually. Not to say blogging is easy but I sometimes wish I would have done more. Taken some classes maybe, short courses, study for a driver's license .. Even a simple hobby or some volunteering would have been fine but I've been too scared to show my face in any of those places. The anxiety that comes with trying new things is enormous. Being afraid of something new runs in my family. We are creatures of habit and even though that is okay - I feel like in our case it is debilitating.
Mental Health Update

I'm going to be honest, even though they were weekly appointments, 2 years of therapy flew by very quickly. I can't believe it's been this long. I remember my first appointment like it was yesterday. Having said that I still go to therapy now, twice a month, which was a decision I made. I felt like my sessions were being more productive that way. My therapist happened to be absent quite often at the end of last year and it actually suited me well. With progress comes a lot of changes and that not only in my personal life but also on my socials. It's been rather quiet on my blog lately and I wanted to talk about that. I feel as if I took a huge leap in my recovery, that I've made some very big improvements but maybe too much too fast. I'm overwhelmed and I'm in a period again where I'm just really tired and I haven't been productive at all as a blogger. The best part of this situation, surprisingly, is that I've finally figured out why - it's because I can't accept that I can succeed.
New Free Roam Bunny

Chloé is potty trained. She's a very affectionate little baby bunny that loves to cuddle and play - a lot. She understands the words kisses, ball, come here and of course her name, Chloé. She's about 9 months old and really enjoys taking long naps under the couch and pushing her Disney princess ball around in our living room. Yes, she is a free roam rabbit, or almost completely free roam. We still keep her in a big cage at night because we've only had her for a little over a month. Chloé wasn't something we had planned, she was an impulse buy at a pet shop.
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