I've never been asked if I have addictions for example, wether I do self harm or even how I just get through my day. They've never told me I'm actually suffering from depression, anxiety or anything else. Every time I bring up terminology like 'mental', 'unstable' or 'mental illness' it's waved away like I've mentioned words of doom (it's getting better though). Taking medication has never been discussed either, even though it's not something I am considering I still find it odd. The only things I do know is that I'm considered normal, and that my feelings are valid. I don't feel normal, in fact, I seriously feel like I'm disabled. I'm normal but yet not fully functional. During my therapy sessions I'm asked about my childhood all the time and I'm starting to question the methods and the outcome.
I understand that professionals working in mental health care don't like to diagnose or label a person out of fear they will actually almost completely start behaving such way, but I've noticed that here, In Belgium at least, they are also hesitant to tell you what seems pretty straightforward, like depression and anxiety. I've been at home for more than 2 years and even though I'm doing much better now, I don't see how my therapist can tell me I'm normal when I have mood swings that unable me to do regular things, sometimes for weeks at a time. It's frustrating to say the least, especially because it would be such a relief. I would finally be able to mourn my past, understand myself in a way that I don't do now, take control of my life and be able to be among people. When I told a health care professional I'm a highly sensitive person he shook his head. Honestly, if people like this would just say they don't know, that would make me feel much better, it shows that you're human and honest with your patients, because being highly sensitive is simply a trait and not something that needs to be diagnosed. The day I found out I was highly sensitive, I had closure. I finally understood why I've felt so vulnerable for so long and it makes me a happier person today.
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