Hours later when I jumped on a train heading back to Brussels a girl about my age asked me for directions, also that conversation turned into a friendly chat. I'm not used to being treated with respect, even though I'm always nice to people I don't often get that in return. Being nice has gotten me in trouble more than I can even remember, and it has caused a lot of self-hatred and self-esteem issues. I was taught to be a nice, friendly, compassionate and understanding human being and it makes me feel so lost because most of what I have seen is people being rude and vicious to me and to each other for absolutely no reason. I went to my GP this week to talk about some physical things that had been bothering been for a long time already. When I explained my problem she thought it was a good idea to tell me how my reasoning for some of the things I said was completely ridiculous. Going to a doctor I expect my issues to be taken seriously, especially considering I don't go there often. Her comments made me feel so desperate, small and humiliated that I started sobbing. I wonder why I always seem to meet people that enjoy belittling others, take goodness for granted and kindness for weakness. I feel like a magnet for negativity and it makes me sad and doubt every move I make.
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A feel good song to beat the blues
My in-law horror story
Things I want to let go in 2016
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